Hello friends, happy happy Thursday! It’s been a crazy busy week, in fact, it’s been a crazy busy month. I cannot believe October is nearly over. October is my favorite month of the entire year, and this sunny, crisp October was no exception. I’ve been super focused on midterms this month and I finally got back the results of the first one yesterday. I don’t get super anxious to take tests but I get anxious after I take a test waiting and waiting and waiting for my results. Waiting for the results of a law school exam is absolute torture because grading takes a month (or longer).
Aside from school I’ve still taken time to enjoy fall in the beautiful pacific northwest. I can’t wait to share everything I’ve been up to in my “October Favorites” post next week. I can’t believe how much has happened over the past 26 days. We’ve had our rainy days here in Seattle but the crisp fall days and glowy, warm morning night have been gloriously beautiful. I have been trying to be intentional about spending time in the morning enjoying nature instead of turning directly to my email inbox and social media pages. It is so tempting to lie in bed and scroll through Instagram right when I get up while I lazily adjust to “being awake” but I feel so much more refreshed when I set aside my phone and take in the natural morning light.
Do you guys remember when I worked selling wedding dresses? It was a dream job in many respects. I especially loved the girls I worked with. Since the bridal shop and I parted ways I have kept in touch with my old manager from the shop. Recently she offered me the opportunity to work at a new dress company’s pop up shop for a weekend in Seattle. While I don’t plan on working regularly during my first year of law school, I am excited to surround myself with lace, tulle and crepe this weekend. Working with brides was SO much fun, I’ve often reminisced about my time as a bridal stylist wistfully, so I am looking forward to all of the Seattle brides I get to meet this weekend.
What do I love more than law school and wedding dresses combined? Therapy! I’ve shared a little about my love of therapy in the past and even convinced Jordan to see a couple’s therapist with me a handful of times in the past as more of a preventative measure than anything else. I’ve always struggled with anxiety but was significantly less anxious the past few years. For a combination of reasons my anxiety has emerged its ugly head more frequently over the past 6 months (hello, maybe it’s law school, family issues, the crazy world we live in, etc). I decided to make an appointment with a new therapist to hash things out before my anxiety got to that “all consuming” level. To be honest, the night before the appointment I wished I could cancel. It felt silly, I couldn’t think of what to talk about. I thought of all the reasons my problems were too small. I thought of all the reasons my anxiety wasn’t bad enough or big enough. Pretty soon I was laying in bed feeling guilty that I felt anxious at all. However, it was too late to cancel my appointment so I went to bed and showed up in the therapist’s office at 9:00 the next morning. Even Cady Heron does not know “word vomit” until she’s seen me talking a million miles a minute in a therapist’s office. My 50 minute session flew by and during every free moment for the rest of the day my mind kept wandering back to all of the things I’d shared and all of the minor (albeit very real) realizations I’d made in that quick 50 minute session.
I am SO thankful I put aside my therapy anxiety and just went. I love therapy but I still can be that person who feels silly or like my life isn’t “bad enough” to go. I guess I just want to encourage anyone who feels like they might benefit from working with a therapist (for the first time or for the one-hundredth time) just to go. You can ALWAYS benefit from understanding more about yourself. You can always benefit from connecting issues in your past to your behavior now. We carry a lot of baggage around in life and we are constantly experiencing more, gaining more, it’s never a bad time to unpack a little. Just go!
Alas, my outfit today is a true staple for me this fall. Olive and leopard have been my go-to color combination for the past two months and I don’t plan on giving up the duo any time soon. I am obsessed with leopard shoes whether they are booties, heels or the mules I picked up on a trip to Switzerland this summer (sort of….it’s a long story). Olive is one of those colors that looks good on everyone (and emerald and rose quarts #StyleTip). Olive and leopard are both neutrals and essentials in my book. You’ll catch me wearing both hues up until Spring (and hey, whose to say if I’ll stop then?)
Thanks again to Madeleine Wilson for the photos for this post! Check out her website and be sure to work with her if you are in the Seattle area.