It’s the week of the LSAT and I’m freaking out. I’ve dedicated the majority of my free time to studying for the past few months before giving myself a pass for most of Thanksgiving weekend. Now I’ve made it to the final stretch. If I do well on the test on Saturday I am done studying the LSAT, likely forever. If I don’t hit my goal score I’ll be retaking the LSAT in February and hardcore studying for three more months. Although I consider myself a bit of a high strung nervous wreck I’ve never suffered from test anxiety. Public speaking makes me black out but taking tests is usually a quiet, solo activity. Taking tests usually feels somewhat calming-I’ve reached the end now all I have to do is demonstrate what I have learned.
I realized last week that the LSAT is different than all of the other tests I’ve taken. I had a dream about completely missing the test because I couldn’t find the bathroom and forgot to print my admission ticket. I woke up with the urge to pee and I couldn’t shake the anxious feeling for half of the morning. The only thing I could think of to ease my anxiety was to dedicate this entire week to antisocial hermit like behavior. There will be no happy hours with friends, no Christmas shopping, no wandering idly through the aisles of Target. I won’t be planning my outfits or prepping my meals or trying out new recipes. Leggings and oversized sweaters and frizzy braided hair has never seemed more appealing. There will be copious amounts of coffee and textbooks and libraries and stacks of practice tests covering my coffee table because I have worked too hard to be distracted now! Oh and because I am not completely type A there will definitely be a few bubble baths and bowls of Phish Food ice cream.
The days that lie ahead will be neurotic, yet I can’t help but feel as if this sort of neurotic mania eases my anxiety. If I do everything within my power to ensure I do my best on Saturday, I don’t have to feel guilty if my LSAT score isn’t where I want it to be. If I do my best and it still isn’t good enough there aren’t any “What ifs?”…it just means I need to keep trying.
Wish me luck blog friends and I apologize in advance if I’m a little slow to respond. As always your comments and support mean the world to me. I am so thankful for the support of the blogging community.
If you have taken the LSAT or any other big tests I would love your tips for managing anxiety and pre-test nerves <3