Thanksgiving has never been my favorite holiday. I’m a vegetarian, I hate large groups of acquaintances and no one seems to ever want to make Thanksgiving a formal “dress up thing” except me. Don’t get me wrong I’m not a total grinch, I’ll happily eat pumpkin pie and smile in a sparkly dress as everyone else eats turkey in sweat pants but it’s not my favorite holiday.
Since the days have been getting shorter and darker I’ve been in a bit of a funk. We moved offices at work making my commute longer and parking infinitely more expensive. The election made me outraged and sad. The winter has always been a sort of somber time, but this year feels extra gloomy.
Perhaps the winter gloom is just what I needed because I am looking forward to an excuse to celebrate all of the things I have to be thankful for.
I’m thankful my cousin is coming down from Canada to visit. I’m thankful there will be more episodes of Gilmore Girls on Netflix. I’m thankful so many of my friends who had moved away for college or grad school are back and so close to me. I’m thankful for a boyfriend who works so hard to make me happy, who will spend the weekend installing new breaks on my car and will listen to me cry over feeling lonely or studying for the LSAT or Donald Trump or simply because I had too much champagne.
I’m thankful for a family that is filled with so much life and personality. I’m thankful my parents and grandparents and Aunt and Uncle seem to support my ambitions no matter what. I’m thankful for chocolate covered almonds and that first cup of coffee in the morning and chic over the knee boots.
I’m thankful for the big things like freedom of speech and living a life where food or warmth or clean water are not issues I worry about each day. I’m thankful for the little things that seem like big things like late night coffee runs with the man I love and puppy snuggles and the satisfaction of a good book.
Oh the world can feel so bleak and hopeless but I am so very lucky and for that I am thankful.
On some level I think I needed to write about gratitude today because of this little funk I’ve been in. It’s the same way I think I need to go out of my way to write Jordan a sweet card on a day I’m feeling particularly annoyed by the way he leaves his dirty laundry in the living room. I know I’m fortunate but I have to remind myself of all the reasons why. November is my least favorite month because it’s cold and gray and dark but maybe that’s why November needs thanksgiving, to remind us all that we still have so much left to be eternally thankful for.
Happy Thanksgiving! I hope you feel loved and grateful and safe today (: