Hello blog world! I have to confess I have been a lackluster blogger lately. I abandoned my blog all last week, I’ve stopped posting on Instagram every day and I’ve completely ignored any and all stats and analytics. I’m far from a professional blogger and lately I don’t mind skipping days or weeks on the internet. Believe it or not I’ve become much more aware of my social media presence over the past couple of months. For years I’ve been so transparent on the web. I’ve shared everything from the intimate heartbreaking details of my relationships to the quiet epiphanies that have come to me while drinking coffee and writing manically. I love all of the people I’ve been able to connect with because I’ve been raw and real, but lately I’ve felt more protective over my own life.
Blogging has always been so addictive because I love the rush that comes with vulnerability. Laying yourself out there naked and raw is such a thrill (I’m speaking figuratively here but I’m sure public nudity offers its own adrenaline rush too). I don’t get the same sense of fulfillment sharing my favorite trends as I do from sharing the contents of my heart or the questions that keep me up at night.
I recently deleted Snapchat. I know, I know- who cares? I realized every time I logged in to look at stories I found myself growing annoyed for seemingly no reason. I instantly became judgemental and irritated. I found videos of people talking to the camera about their day to day lives obnoxious. Every time I saw a friend or a blogger rambling on about sitting in traffic or curling their hair I rolled my eyes. I don’t have anything more interesting to put on Snapchat so I’m not just a judgemental brat…I guess I just realized Snapchat probably isn’t for me. As trite as social media is I think we can all admit as bloggers it becomes a big part of our day to day lives. My Snapchat epiphany made me realize how easy it is to let something that is supposed to be fun become a source of negativity.
I occasionally have to remind myself that just because something is fun for other people doesn’t mean it is fun for me. Snapchat was making me a judgemental b so I had to kick that negative energy to the curb.
Blogging has never been the portion of social media that bothers me. I love word vomiting into this little white box and waiting for the Internet to respond. I love blogging but I don’t always love all of the “branding” that comes along with it. I really admire the men and women who take their personal blogs and turn them into careers or businesses but I’m not really about that life. If I treat my blog like a business I completely lose what I love about this space.
Can I clear the air for a minute? Can I confess a few things without you guys feeling like I’m judging you or the blogging community as a whole? Okay, cool.
Because I really really hate self promotion and every time I have to share one of my blog posts on twitter or Facebook or Instagram I die a little inside.
I think SnapChat is the most obnoxiously narcisstic social media platform there is and speaking into the camera made me feel like a real jerk.
And the click bait blog titles…is there anything tackier than pretending you have something revolutionary to say when you’re really just showing off a new pair of jeans. ROCK those jeans girl but let’s not pretend you have a huge top secret life update. I don’t have any tabloid worthy life updates I just have a cute new sweatshirt and I’m not going to pretend that’s bigger than it is.
Oh my gosh enough with the faux news articles on Facebook cruel world! I know we all learned how to critically examine sources of information in high school so can we please stop reposting fake news stories…please?
Alright, that feels good. I’ll be honest I wrote a few more social media rants before hitting the delete button and pushing my judgey thoughts out of the blogosphere because I realize my thought process isn’t the end all be all.
You can subscribe to all of the social media practices I despise and still be a rockstar of a human being! I’m sharing my grievances not to judge or shame anyone but because I want my blog to be a space where I can be 100% real with you guys. If I’m being 100% real I have hit a point that calls for a social media refresh and I suspect I’m not the only one.
What do you love about the internet? What drives you absolutely bonkers? (Maybe you hate girls who go on crazy rants about Snapchat…it’s cool).