A few months ago I wrote a post titled “Exactly Where I’m Supposed to be?“. I felt unsure, unsettled…I felt lost. While one of my friends was off chasing her dreams teaching science in Thailand, I was writing articles on how furnaces work and spending my evenings wishing my boyfriend would get home from work before I drifted off to sleep. Though there were so many areas of my life that felt great, I was still in a bit of a funk. I needed a change but I had no idea where to start! When my Mom e-mailed me a job listing at a local wedding dress boutique I initially rolled my eyes. I hadn’t worked in the wedding industry before and though it sounded like a dream job it felt like just that, a day dream. Around the same time I started looking into online classes to help me feel fulfilled intellectually. I love to learn and wanted to spend my evenings at home doing more than binge watching Gilmore Girls on Netflix.
I decided to send in a resume and cover letter to the bridal boutique my Mom had recommended, I didn’t know what they were searching for but something in me told me I should at least see what could happen. In college I took as many fashion classes as my history degree would allow, and after a Parsons X Teen Vogue Course and a few Coursera fashion classes I realized I was still interested in all aspects of the industry. The same week I interviewed with the Bridal boutique I learned about online courses at the Academy of Art out of San Francisco. Though I still felt lost, part of me felt hopeful! Maybe a new job would inspire me and if it didn’t work out I could always enroll in a few creative courses online. All I knew was that I craved passion and I was determined to find it no matter what.
As I’m sure you’ve figured out, I was offered the job at the wedding dress boutique and accepted eagerly. The past six weeks has been amazing and I can honestly say I am the happiest with my job I have ever been. So many of you told me you think I have the perfect personality for this industry (bridal) and I truly love this field more every day. I love being around love but even more, I love being around the dresses and my super sweet co-workers. Each of the women I work with are so talented, sweet and hard working. I feel lucky to work with a fabulous team on a daily basis!
What I haven’t “fully” shared yet, is that at the beginning of February I started classes online through the Academy of Art as well. While I’ve been working full time, I’ve been spending all of my free time learning, completing assignments and studying. I’m taking two classes on fashion journalism and a class on video editing. Between work, blogging and school I feel like I am busy every second, still, I feel like productive is my happy place. Most importantly I’m passionate. I love growing, I love learning, I love producing!
Strangely (happily), my life is a complete foil of what it was just a few months ago. Certainly things aren’t perfect, I still cry in the shower, I still receive way too many parking tickets, I still don’t know where I want to be in five years (or in ten), but I’m happy. I’m so happy with what’s mine (my new career, my hobbies, my aspirations) as well as what I share (my apartment, my friendships, my puppy, my relationship). Though I didn’t think it was possible just a few months back, I do feel as if I am exactly where I am supposed to be though it certainly isn’t the future I would have predicted.
When life feels so full with love and new adventure I can’t help but force myself to keep my eyes wide open, it’s as if I’m worried that if I close them (even for a moment) everything will disappear. I know there will be days I want to stay in bed and watch Gilmore Girls instead of heading into work, or evenings I wish I could meet friends for drinks instead of writing papers, so I want to cherish the grateful feeling. I want to remember how good right now feels, so I can recall this gratitude when I’m stressed or disheartened or annoyed.
Have you had any “I’m so happy I could cartwheel” moments recently? What do you look for as reassurance that you are “where you’re supposed to be”?
***Gowns| On Me: Galia Lahav Gala, Sarah Seven Orleans. On Kait: Rue de Seine McKenzie
***All Photos taken by Courtney Briones