It’s officially been a week since I started working at my new job. I know a week isn’t very long and there is so much time for my perspective to change but I really really really love it. I started working at a small appointment only wedding dress boutique. I was nervous because I’ve never worked in the wedding industry and because my schedule switched from the conventional 9:00-5:00 hours to more of a “retail schedule”. I was worried but the past week has eased my concerns. It’s only been a week but I’ve never loved a job more.
There have definitely been a few moments this week that felt more like “play” than work. One evening an appointment canceled and I was able to try on a few dresses as a method of “studying”. Playing dress up at work? Who could say no? Though most moments are spent clipping brides into gowns and reassuring mother’s that a backless gown really isn’t too sexy, I can’t say I’ve ever been happier. Ooh-ing and aww-ing at glowing brides in jaw dropping gowns makes the work day go by quickly. I’m sure this new position will present its own set of unique challenges, but as of right now its perfect. I don’t dread heading into work. How could I? My office is essentially a princess’ s dressing quarters.
I’ve hoped to work in fashion, in any capacity, for some time. I’ve always been afraid I wasn’t fashion-y enough to work in fashion (as if that logic makes any sense). I’ve feared about what two opposing groups I imagined in my head would think about me. Would be my family and friends who would see my dreams as air-headed and immature? Would the fashion-world see me as incompetent and undetermined? I gave up before I even tried; I crushed my own dreams before anyone else had the opportunity to belittle my ambitions for me. So often we are our own worst enemies.
About a month and a half ago, I wrote about feeling unsure. I wondered how people ever felt as if they were “exactly where they are supposed to be”. Though I’m not sure I’ll ever be SO SURE of anything, I’m cursed with uncertainty and indecisiveness, I feel hopeful and happy. I look forward to learning more about each bridal designer we carry, memorizing the price points and possible alterations of each dress, getting to know the sweet girls I work with and watching happy brides find their dream dress for their big day. It’s all so exciting isn’t it?
Dorky as it may sound-I’m excited to start this new chapter of my life. I hope that the smooth and enthralling first week foreshadows a fulfilling learning experience. All jobs have bad days, but I’m hopeful I have found a spot I can pause and relish for a moment. I’ll try not to bombard you with too many more photos of me trying on wedding dresses.
How has 2016 treated you so far? Did you have a lovely weekend?