Just a few minutes ago I was scrolling through my Pinterest boards and deleting old pins. Apparently you’re supposed to get rid of every pin without repins to trick Pinterest that you’re popular and help your new pins get seen (or something). As I was looking at my pins from my sophomore year of college (when I first stated using Pinterest) I cringed at some of the silly posts I’d pinned for whatever reason. If a post had anything to do with Tri Delta it was pinned, if there was a pink sparkle to be seen…it was pinned. My obsession with Peeta Mellark via Pinterest made me look borderline insane and for some unknown reason I was pinning weird photos of children with lions. Among the clutter that needed deleted there were a few gems (primarily quotes) that still resonate with me today.
One such quote stated “I want to create beautiful things, even if nobody cares”.
And it was like six months worth of blogging distress melted away. You see, I’ve been writing in this space for almost three years-for about two of those years I’ve claimed to take blogging seriously. I’ve thrown money into advertising, blog designs, self-hosting and a new camera. I’ve read articles about blogging, books about writing, and taken e-courses and webinars. More often than not I couldn’t really see the results of my efforts-I felt like I was throwing money into nothing, but I was okay with that because blogging was my hobby.
Over the past few months something changed, a lot of people began asking me about my blog and what I planned to “do” with it. I had a lot more time on my hands and though I considered myself someone who took blogging “seriously” I decided to step it up a notch. Rather than just sitting down and ranting about my feelings I wanted more structure. I wanted to maintain the authenticity of emotion while creating content that had a “purpose”. As a whole I don’t think my goal was a bad goal (and I plan to stick with it) but along the way I think my vision became muddled.
I’ve started caring a lot more about the little things-like constantly updating my SnapChat story and increasing my pageviews and deleting old pins on Pinterest. I’m all for the tactics and tips to help my blog grow and I know they’re necessary but I don’t have the energy to care SO much, and I don’t think I ever will. My energy is for spilling my heart into writing.
I can’t create buzzfeed worthy lists about twenty somethings, or Disney Princesses or Taylor Swift songs. I appreciate the articles for what they are but what they aren’t is me. I can’t pour so much energy into that portion of blogging because the portion of blogging that ignites my soul and fuels the passion within me is writing. The thing about writing is that sometimes you pour your soul into something eloquent and well written and nobody really likes it, nobody really cares. And then…other times you’ll throw together a silly post about bad dates, or twitter fights or Gigi Hadid and the world freaks out, and it’s cool! Yet, for me, usually that post about Gigi Hadid’s mile high legs didn’t mean much-so we’re left feeling like the best thing to do is write pieces we don’t care all that much about while simultaneously being our “most authentic selves“.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t believe every (or even most) popular posts are inauthentic. I guess blogging just requires a balancing act. Write something people care about (but also pour your soul into it)!
I want to write beautiful (meaningful) things, even if nobody cares. I want to write posts that sometimes seem off-brand and pin things I like even if no one else repins them. I want to post photos with my little brother on Instagram even though he’s wearing a Superman shirt with a camo hat and it totally clashes with my boho dress. These things matter to me and I founded The Fairy Princess Diaries as a place of authenticity. My mission statement and blog purpose encompasses being true to who you are even if that person isn’t popular or vogue or well-liked.
So even though I’m going to stay focused on building the best blog I can build, with content that is as high quality as possible…I can’t promise it will ever be right. I still can’t bring myself to delete some of those old pins, even if they highlight my past obsession with Peeta from the Hunger Games. Likewise, I don’t think I’ll ever have a perfect editorial calendar, a niche or a blog that interests everybody (or even most people) and I think that is probably okay.
My blog is about being unapologetically who you are, and I’ve always been someone who felt misunderstood-never one to fit in with my peers. Why should blogging be any different?
Have you ever felt conflicted when it comes to writing? What is your tactic for social media? How do you write authentic while still writing about topics that are relevant and interesting? There are no wrong answers, I’m just interested in reading your responses!