I recently shot for a lace themed feature in Giuseppina Magazine with the super talented Sophie Dituri. We had a lot of freedom in terms of hair and makeup so I (of course) pushed for a woodland fairy concept however the makeup artist blew me away by taking my idea and portraying it so darkly. I was so nervous as Faith (MUA) painted on my face, I had never worn black lipstick let alone attempted to rock black eyebrows and orange/yellow contouring. I’m unadventurous in the beauty department (#UnderstatementOfTheYear) but Faith is amazing so I completely trusted her vision. When she was finished with me I walked away feeling like Maleficent. Sophie and I shot at a park and I swear everyone was holding their children tightly as I walked by. I felt like I belonged in a horror movie! I totally loved channeling darkness as opposed to sunshine and sparkles for once though. Taking on a character is one of my favorite parts of this creative outlet.
Channeling darkness for a day inspired me to think more about my own perceptions (and society’s depictions) of what it means to be dark. Often times darkness and evil are depicted as one in the same yet I don’t think the two are always the synonyms of one another (though often intertwined). While evil is inherently malevolent (clearly) I don’t believe darkness is inherently bad. I believe there are pieces of darkness in all of us though most of the time we hide or suppress them. We all feel darkness whether it is through rage or disappointment or depression. Darkness is present. Darkness is inevitable. I think it’s what we do with darkness that determines whether or not it manifests into something evil. Do we take darkness and own it? Do we push it aside into internal boxes and pretend it doesn’t exist? Do we allow it to overtake us and control our actions and decisions? How we handle darkness is what matters no?
I like to embrace the darker side of life occasionally. I think owning the darkness inside me allows me to compartmentalize my life a bit. By giving myself an outlet for darker feelings (writing, reading sad poetry, creepy photo shoots, crying in the shower) I am able to fulfill the release I need internally. I know I can’t bottle away emotion without it eventually overtaking me (any emotion bad or good). Personally I need an outlet. I certainly can’t say for sure but I have this feeling that if more people were able to find a safe place to release their darkness (a creative outlet per se) a good deal of petty darkness and personal evils could be alleviated. We stigmatize darkness as bad but in reality feelings in themselves aren’t bad but the results (crime, drug use, abuse, suicide) can be. Must darkness corroborate evil?
Oh my, I could go on forever! I don’t have the answers though. Life is complicated. Introspection takes over my life, I swear!
What are your thoughts on darkness? How do you handle darkness in your own life?