Today marks the 2nd birthday of The Fairy Princess Diaries, a little space I founded to document the magic and happiness of everyday life out of the fear that I wouldn’t always see everyday magic. I wanted to share my life with friends and family but more than anything, I now realize, I needed a creative outlet. In some ways my blog has failed. I have chronicled more heart break than feelings of elation, I’ve used it just as much as a place to cry as a place to sing praises of thankfulness. Am I always talking about enchantment and Magic? No. Sometimes I’m hear to write about loss and breakdown and grieving. I use this space as an outlet for a range of human emotion and in actuality I think feelings of loss and sadness and grief…I believe those feelings can be beautiful (if not magical) too.
As all bloggers tend to say, “I didn’t know what to expect from blogging”. I had no idea that sharing my deepest emotions and feelings would lead to so many valuable friendships and opportunities. I had no clue that blogging would become such an intergral part of my identity or that it would fill me with this sense of purpose. Although I can admit that the past month has been a difficult blogging month for me, the flame within me has not weakened. I truly believe that for me the times when I don’t necessarily want to show up in this little space are usually the times I need this venue more than ever. The release writing gives me is truly a gift and I am so grateful I stumbled across WordPress some 740ish days ago.
Moving forward I don’t necessarily have specific goals for my blog the way I once did. I’m not set on reaching a certain number of followers, I don’t care if I write more about boys or fashion or beauty or friendship…I simply want to be. I want to continue writing what weighs on my heart and further the discussions on these matters. I truly cannot express how thankful I am for those of you who heard me cry when I felt lost or alone or silenced. I have learned so much about myself in this space over the past two years but more importantly blogging has reaffirmed the goodness of people. I sometimes doubt the inherent goodness of the world but blogging, on a daily basis, restores that faith.
Whether you’ve been around for the past 2 years or today is your first time reading, thank you from every corner of my heart! This blog really is pieces of my heart articulated into words and it means so much that you have taken the time to read it.