Occasionally in life there comes a time in which the things you were once fueled by and passionate about no longer excite you. In many instances you may find yourself in a “funk” or a “rut” in which case the best option may just be to power through or find the motivation to reignite your passion. To give up too soon, or too early on can be a disservice to yourself and consequently can lead to regret, missed opportunities and the dreaded internal questioning “what if”.
For the past few weeks I have been unable to escape that dreaded feeling of impending doom. I’ve been neurotic (yes, even more neurotic than usual). I have felt nauseous as graduation date approaches and the idea of moving to Baltimore has haunted me. I argued with my intuition, after all, I convinced myself it was natural to get cold feet when it came to moving across the country alone. I urged myself to stop being so stupid and afraid as I firmly believe we should be constantly pushing ourselves outside of our rigid comfort zones.
This past weekend I had the privilege of traveling with my family to Washington DC and Baltimore. We spend Friday and Saturday night in Gerogetown, and I don’t think my experience could have been anymore lovely. On Sunday we drove to Baltimore and spent the first part of the day at the baseball game, it was a perfect Sunday Funday with my family even as a non sports fan. Finally we had the chance to explore the city (my potential new home!). My Aunt, Uncle and Dad were eager to help me search for an apartment, check out neighborhoods and see the office location of my Summer internship. I truly am fortunate to have such a caring, loving, family. After thorough exploring and researching we came to the solid conclusion that Baltimore is simply not the city for me.
While part of me is sad to turn down an opportunity, I can’t help but feel a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders and for that reason I am confident I am making the right decision. My plans have undoubtedly shifted, and my natural tendency is nervous anxiety yet, I simultaneously feel something I just wasn’t feeling before, excitement. I am reenergized about my future, though I am afraid my heart is filled with zest and passion rather than bogged down by anxiety and doom.
It is time to plan a new adventure! Speaking of dreams and adventures, I have been working on a project with my Best Friend, Nicole and today is the official launch day of our “online magazine” through Her Campus. I would SO appreciate if you would take the time to check out our little corner of the internet at Her Campus. You can find more articles written by me (woot) (oh and yes there is a Taylor Swift themed article in case you were worried) as well as by even more talented wonderful college writers. Let me know what you think and follow our facebook page if you feel so inclined!