I’ve made it pretty clear I have a big fat girl crush on Blair Waldorf. I love her headbands, I love her scheming, I love her “won’t stop until I get what I want” attitude, and of course I love her fairytale romance with Chuck Bass. As much as I’ve idolized Queen B, I’ve started to realize I’m more of a Serena than a Blair, and it goes beyond the blonde hair and occasionally boho style. It’s only when I step back and examine my own actions and inner workings of my head that I can admit this to myself, as I desperately crave a Blair Waldorf-esque wardrobe, attitude and boyfriend, duh. I fall in love quickly, and wear my heart on my sleeve…
sometimes oftentimes to a fault. Furthermore I seem to be drawn to emotionally damaged and troubled people (outsiders per say).
I’m pretty sure any Gossip Girl fan began season one deeming Serena as Sunshine Barbie and Blair as Darth Vader (to use Blair’s own words), over time Serena becomes more and more obnoxious. She continues to make the same mistakes over and over and over again, she ruins her friends plans, and she remains hung up on the same (in my opinion) annoyingly arrogant guy for years. She’s characterized by her own troubled past, her own mistakes and despite how she tries to “move forward” and prove to all of the Upper East Side she’s a better person she consistently stumbles, she consistently fails. Serena’s emotions often get the best of her, unraveling many of her friends’ brilliant scheming plans. Although I hate to admit it, jealousy has got the best of me at times as well…perhaps the time I dumped my glass of water in my boyfriend’s face as he was “flirting”(talking) to another girl at a Halloween Party (TOTAL SERENA MOVE).
I’m truly not trying to degrade myself here…I actually like Serena more as a character now that I can find pieces of myself in her. Sure, I’m always on this epic cliche quest to loose myself and find myself and even though I know no one really ever fulfills any of these tasks…I can’t help but feel compelled to try anyways. Serena certainly isn’t perfect (although her hair…her hair is arguably perfect) but maybe there’s some beauty in her faults too?
What about you, are you a Blair or a Serena? Perhaps a Chuck or a Nate? Maybe even a Jenny Humphrey (although for your own mental sanity I certainly hope not)! As you can tell deep discussions based around Gossip Girl and Taylor Swift are sort of the “Go-To” discussion topics around here.