My love for Taylor Swift has reached a whole new level, the fact is, I thought I couldn’t possibly love Taylor anymore without hopping the fence and changing my sexual preference but here’s the thing I did(not hop the the fence but love her more). Taylor’s interview in Glamour this month absoloutely swept me off my feet, after reading I felt more inspired and enlightened, not by her musical talent or relationship advice but her honesty and authenticity through her writing. I’ve always really admired that Taylor writes so many of her own songs, behind her talent and her beauty there is substance, there is the same creative drive that draws so many others to write whether through poetry, narratives, fiction, etc.
As much as I adore music, I’m really a sucker for beautiful lyrics. I find myself listening to the same songs on repeat to linger on a single phrase or line. I love finding new meaning in lyrics depending on where I am in my life, or how I happen to be feeling on any given day. I think beautiful, well written lyrics should be able to speak to different people in a different manner. I think Taylor’s lyrics do just that.
On the same note a few specific quotes really stood out to me. Taylor mentioned that to her, writing a song that exposes and expresses her true emotions can feel risky, especially when the song suggests who it is written about. Anyone broadcasting the inner workings of their mind on the internet can understand this viewpoint. On one hand, it is so incredibly liberating to show up and let my thoughts spill into this little website. It allows me to sort through my own brain, to rant and to relate to others. It is a truly amazing feeling. Yet, at the same time it can be scary. I question how much of my life and my personal emotions I should freely express in such a public setting. At the end of the day I feel comfortable sharing such a large portion of my life, of my heart, that the benefits seem to outweigh the risks yet there is still a caveat.
Where do you draw the line when your own narratives and emotions are so closely intertwined with those of another human being, you know, a normal one who doesn’t share all of the intimate details of their life on the internet? At times I wonder how much I should share about my friends, my boyfriend, my family and my past relationships (The Prime example here!). While I may feel comfortable sharing bits of these relationships it is important to take into account if the people I care about do. Since I’m not an international superstar inspiring millions and landing magazine covers I don’t know if I can “afford” to risk as much as say…Taylor Swift. Yet, to completely ignore the pieces of me that have hurt me most, forced me to grow or simply just made me really happy seems inauthentic.
Finally I was moved by Taylor ultimately confessing she doesn’t have a thick skin. I like to think of myself as confident, but I don’t think being confident means never getting hurt. As someone who finds a sense of fulfillment through writing I have found that allowing a certain degree of sadness, of self doubt and of fear to penetrate through the outer layer of confidence can actually be beneficial. I don’t want to let the negativity of other’s control the way I view myself or my life but I also don’t want to suppress my own feelings just because they’re “bad”. I’ve found that by allowing myself to admit when I feel defeated, heartbroken, rejected and intimidated I can channel these feelings into words. I may never write a grammy worthy single with these experiences but I think these “bad” feelings are part of what makes us human and consequently what makes our writing real.
What do you think about Taylor’s thoughts on writing? Did you interpret her interview in Glamour differently than I did?