Yesterday I shared some funky little facts about me. I shared how much I hate alone time, and it’s true, I do.
I’ve always wanted to be one of those girls who lives on her own in a chic studio apartment in Los Angeles or New York City. I’ve wanted to be the girl with a canopy over her bed, glittery picture frames on the wall and a mermaid themed bathroom until she’s 30 (or hey even later). I’ve wanted to prance around the city in a little black dress, a pair of leopard print heels and a pink kate spade trench coat. I’ve wanted to be the girl who can meet friends for cocktails and then be just fine spending the rest of the evening home alone, reading in the bath or watching reruns of “Friends” or I don’t know blogging. But I’m not that girl, not only because I don’t live in an episode of Sex & The City (which please don’t shoot me but I have actually never seen) and not just because I have a boyfriend, but because I actually just hate being alone.
Whenever I’m alone, I have to distract myself. I have to trick my mind into thinking I’m not actually alone. Sometimes it’s talking on the phone, sometimes it’s watching netflix and pretending the tv show characters are actually my friends, and sometimes it’s reading. Last night I read the first…I don’t know 466 pages of “Divergent” which was good&jolly except I had to force myself to stay up reading until my eyes could not stay open (meaning I slept with the light on)otherwise I would NOT have been able to sleep knowing I was alone.
I think I have a problem.
For those of you who enjoy alone time, I’m begging you to share how you do it? PLEASE tell me there is a way to learn to enjoy alone time and it isn’t just a gift for those who are born with the trait. Can someone train me to enjoy being alone?! I’m starting to believe the only solution is spending the entire day around a small gang of young children because after a long day with a bunch of screaming kids…then I understand this “thirst” for alone time.
Please send detailed instructions on how to be a Big Girl asap, I’m desperate. I keep listening to the Celine Dion version of “All By Myself” and I think it’s getting a bit dramatic.
P.S. DIVERGENT IS SO GOOD! WHY DIDN’T ANYONE TELL ME ABOUT IT SOONER?!?!