An Ode to my first Migraine (& a recap of my trip so far)

Last Wednesday evening I caught a flight to San Francisco where I was supposed to meet my Aunt before carpooling to Napa Valley. As the law of the universe would have it, her flight was drastically delayed so we booked a hotel near the airport where I could stay for the night and carpool with her in the morning.

I boarded my flight merrily, flipping through a new book from the library. As the flight attendants demonstrated the usual boarding safety routine my vision started to blur. I read and reread the same sentence on the page of my novel half a dozen times but I couldn’t seem to comprehend what the words in front of me said. I turned on the cabin light…but I still couldn’t seem to make out the letter I’d been reading just minutes prior.

Internally I was panicking. It was just past 7:30 in the evening and I felt like I could nod off at any moment, my vision was blurred and my head was pounding. Paranoid, I was certain I must have been drugged! As soon as I was able I ordered a coffee from the flight attendant and drank it black. I hoped the caffeine would correct my vision but nodded off moments later.

This photo of my sweet siblings and I has nothing to do with my horrible migraine but I thought it was cute and wanted to share (:

This photo of my sweet siblings and I has nothing to do with my horrible migraine but I thought it was cute and wanted to share (:

I awoke to find the flight would be landing soon. Of course I was happy I’d slept through most of the flight, I was still groggy, my head was aching terribly and I was still seeing double. The last twenty minutes of the flight made me nauseous, when we landed I dashed to grab a cab to the hotel and hopefully get to sleep. No surprise, the taxi ride was jerky, I grew dizzier and dizzier until we pulled up in front of the hotel. In I stumbled where I checked in and purchased extra strength advil from the hotel gift shop. Only four floors stood between me and a dark hotel room where I could collapse into bed.

I stepped into the elevator followed by two other women who stood on either side of me. The elevator lurched up one floor, it felt as if tiny pieces of my brain were exploding. The elevator lurched up to the second floor and my stomach did cartwheels. The elevator lurched up to the third floor and the world in front of me started spinning. The elevator lurched to a stop at the fourth floor and there was no stopping it, I was throwing up in my hands.

My little sister Gigi and I at our "sister sleepover".

My little sister Gigi and I at our “sister sleepover”. Isn’t she precious?

Panicked and humiliated I ran from the elevator straight to a garbage can in the hallway. I continued to bear the contents of my dinner, the coffee from the plane and the bottle of water I’d chugged. Hoping my hotel room was just around the corner I ventured forward. With each step forward the pain in my head grew bigger and stronger, my suit case bumped my heel and I stumbled pathetically. Standing up was too much for my head to handle and once again I found myself throwing up into my hands.

I pulled off my jacket and used it to wipe my hands as I pulled forward. I couldn’t just sit down and continue to be sick in the hallways of the hotel. I was certain anyone who saw me would assume I was drunk and I wasn’t!

When I finally made it to the room I washed my hands, took a few advil and collapsed on the floor. I must have stayed there for ten minutes before climbing into bed. My mind finally felt clear enough to critically examine “what is wrong with me?” and then to google “migraine symptoms”.

It all came together-the blurred vision, the motion sickness, the horrible headache and sensitivity to light. I’d experienced my first migraine! Oh joy!

My Aunt & I kissing our medals after the Bay to Breakers race. So much fun!

My Aunt & I kissing our medals after the Bay to Breakers race. So much fun!

Luckily, the start of my trip wasn’t prophetic of how the rest of my family time would unfold. I’ve been soaking up the sun in Calistoga with my family ever so happily. Some of the highlights include morning hikes with the dogs, a facial at the spa, a big family barbecue followed by a sleepover with my 8 year old brother and 2 year old sister, taking the family’s exchange student for her first mani-pedi before prom and running in the Bay to Breakers race in San Francisco.

I’ve been SO checked out of social media which is totally not the norm for me. I’ll try to check in a little more during the remainder of my trip however family time occasionally trumps blog life.

If you’ve ever had a migraine I want to hear about your experience…how did you handle it? Is there even such a thing as gracefully and glamorously dealing with the pain that feels like your brain is exploding?

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Outfit Repeater

Do you ever go through seasons of wearing (and re-wearing) the same pieces time after time? I have a whole closet (and two dressers) overflowing with clothes, yet, at any given time I probably only cycle through 1/5 of them. It sounds like I’m bragging but I think most girls can relate. How do we have SO many clothes and nothing to wear?  I’ll obsess over a few key pieces and work around the focus pieces for a month or so before moving on to a new set of key pieces.

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Necklace: Rocksbox (free month when you use the code ‘fairyprincessjordxoxo’) | Top: Madewell (On Sale!)| Denim: Madewell | Purse: See by Chloe (similar) (similar) | Booties: Free People (On Sale!)

Right before my trip to Paris I stocked up on pretty spring pieces from Madewell (like this off the shoulder top and this one). It’s safe to say my purchases are quickly paying off for themselves. Among my Madewell buys were this striped peplum top and this trendy pair of distressed skinny jeans. I loved that the top felt like Taylor Swift prior to her grunge phase and the black denim was too good to pass up.

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Most of the time I like to try and re-wear pieces in a new way (i.e. paired with denim, then a skirt, then leggings, etc) but I think everyone needs a few outfits they can fall back on. Lately this striped look with black skinny jeans and a few accessories is my favorite dressed down look for just about everything!

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Peplum is sometimes scary! It definitely has the tendency to deemphasize the smallest portion of the natural waist which can make me feel fuller. When I saw this top folded nicely on display I almost didn’t try it on because I tend to dislike the way peplum eliminates my practically straight waist into nothing. This casual tee is the perfect peplum exception. The way it flows feels billowy rather than dumpy and with a statement necklace I would argue the look is positively chic.

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It probably isn’t necessary to declare the loveliness of distressed black denim. For whatever reason I avoided all black denim (destroyed or not) for years. In February I finally purchased my first pair of black high waisted jeans and I am a changed woman! I worried when I impulsively picked up this Madewell pair that I couldn’t justify two black denim purchases in a matter of months (I don’t buy denim often) but I’ve already forgiven myself for the purchase. The distressed denim is perfect for a night out or an edgy date look, while the high waisted pair feels put together enough for a casual office look. Both black denim pieces are wardrobe staples now. I don’t know how I ever lived without black denim!

Next purchase…I obviously need a pair of black denim shorts (like these ones) for the warm summer weather! This afternoon I am headed to Napa Valley to spend a few glorious days in the sunshine with my family down there. I cannot wait to squeeze my baby brother and force him to go on bike rides with me. Yay for being a big sister, hehe.

Follow my long weekend adventures in wine country on Instagram and SnapChat (fairyprincessj).

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Outdoor Adventures

Even a swoon-worthy new Tory Burch bag filled with chocolates and peonies couldn’t make me as happy as Washington in the summer. Fresh air, sunshine and scenery are such a perfect recipe for happiness. The mountains, forest and sea are so enchanting, you really can’t help but radiate your own inner sunshine in nature.

The past few days I’ve really embraced the perfect eighty degree weather and all of the opportunities to enjoy nature right outside my door. When I’m in a funk forcing myself to get out of bed or away from my laptop and into the fresh air is a great remedy. Whether it’s a quick walk to grab coffee, an extended stay at the dog park, a day long hike with friends or opting for picnic dinner…I know I’ll feel more refreshed after the fresh air.

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Washington state is exceptionally beautiful, though I may be a little biased. I do believe every state (or province) has lovely outdoor spaces worthy of spring picnics and leisurely summer evenings. One of my goals for the month was to check out a new hike. Luckily Jordan, my bestie Nicole and her boyfriend were more than willing to join me this weekend. Now I am searching for more excuses to cartwheel in the grass, stare out at the water and even climb a few trees. Monday evening presented the perfect opportunity for a short canoe ride with Nicole (who luckily loves being outside just as much as I do). I’m so weak that my arms felt like jello after about an hour but it was so worth the soreness for the great views of ducklings, turtles, and even a blue heron! Summer makes me feel like a child inside and to be honest I don’t hate it.

For the rest of the month I’m hoping to be outdoors as much as possible. Of course, there are valid reasons not to be outside (aka work) but that doesn’t mean I can’t embrace my inner nature girl whenever probable. I even like to blog at the outdoor tables at Starbucks! Anything for some extra sunshine (but don’t forget the SPF).

I would encourage everyone to spend a little more time outdoors over the next few months. Swimming, paddle boarding, taking a jog, reading a book in the grass, practicing yoga lakeside at sunrise…May is the time to ditch your stuffy apartment. I promise your body and mind will thank you for it!

How do you take advantage of the weather in the spring and summer? Do you have any go-to outdoor activities?


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Where to find Happiness

Happy Monday! I hope your weekend was filled with adventure! Jordan and I had an amazing hike with my best friend and her boyfriend on Saturday and on Sunday I was lucky enough to spend the day at the zoo with my Mom and brother. I’m sad to say goodbye to such a lovely weekend but oh so excited for the week ahead.

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Off the Shoulder Top: Madewell | Shorts: Forever 21 (similar) | Heels: Nine West (similar) (love these)

“I’m beginning to think that you don’t find happiness from living your life looking ahead or back…that you find it when you look around” -Taylor Swift

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The past few weeks I’ve realized I’ve been placing so much emphasis on future plans and ambitions to provide me with happiness and fulfillment. Sometimes it can feel like I’m always planning, always setting goals and never appreciating the goals I achieved or the plans that are unfolding in front of me. It’s like the child on Christmas morning that is already dreading the wait until Christmas next year instead of enjoying the moment. I fall into the trap of being that child.kick-up-your-heels

Browsing Pinterest last night I stumbled across the Taylor Swift quote mentioned above and it resonated with me. What reason do I have not to be happy now? To be fair, it’s not like I am depressed but I don’t always take time to appreciate all of the wonderful reasons I have to be overflowing with happiness. I don’t need to wait for a higher paycheck, a new pair of flats, a vacation or external validation. Shouldn’t we all enjoy the adventure now?

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One of the happiest periods of time I can remember is my freshman year of college. I was so carefree and focused entirely on the moment while still working hard investing in my future. I didn’t have constant anxiety about the next five years because I was so wrapped up in the sensory experience of the present that I just didn’t have the time to fret.

I definitely don’t wish I could go back to being a college freshman. I’ve learned so much since that time, my confidence has grown and new relationships have emerged. I don’t want to be an undergraduate anymore but I do think adopting the same sense of awe and adventure I had as an 18 year old flying from the nest for the first time is a noble idea.

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These earrings are from my Rocksbox set this month, use code “fairyprincessjordxoxo” for a free month (:

Though this phase in my life isn’t defined by a set of specific societally outlined experiences (living in a dorm, tasting my first sip of alcohol, ordering pizza at midnight, cramming for finals, etc). it doesn’t mean adventure and happiness are not out there. Why can’t every year be approached with the same doe eyed exuberance and willingness to experience life for all of the newness it has to offer. Life never fails to surprise me with obstacles (and blessings) I never saw coming. I’ve realized embracing the beautifully chaotic adventure that is life is half of the happiness journey.

 

How do you remind yourself to stay present in a moment? Do you find yourself happier this way?

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Lessons from my Mom

Happy Friday gorgeous girls! This weekend is all about celebrating the important women in our lives, I feel so lucky that I not only have a loving mother but also grandmas and aunts that have played significant roles in my upbringing. My Mom and I haven’t always had an easy relationship, in fact if I am being honest my relationship with my Mom has been one of the most challenging relationships of my life. Mother-daughter relationships are so special though. I know when I am happy my Mom will celebrate my victories with me, when I am sad my Mom will be there to comfort me and when I am weird or awkward my Mom will accept me nonetheless.

Over the years I have come to appreciate my Mother’s unique style of parenting. All parenting styles are different and I certainly do not believe there is a “right way” to raise children, all parents make mistakes and all parents have successes as well. Looking back some of the most valuable lessons my mom taught me extend past childhood and remind me how to live as an adult too.

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Lessons from my Mom

1.Birthdays are to be celebrated all month long, no matter how old you’re turning. I can proudly say I’ve carried my Mom’s love of birthdays into adulthood.

2. There is no excuse for being bratty or entitled, ever!

3. Crying does not make you weak, it isn’t wrong to display emotions. I consider myself a crier and I’m not at all ashamed.

4. Natural beauty is the best beauty. My mom has never worn a lot of makeup but is one of the most naturally beautiful women I’ve ever seen. She focuses on enhancing her natural features instead of caking on highlighter and contouring her face into something it isn’t. Experimenting with makeup is fun but I always feel best when I embrace my Mom’s low key makeup style.

5. A hot bath is the best cure for stress. I inherited my mom’s love of a nightly bubble bath and a good book to unwind and shake off the stress of the day. Now you’ll catch me in the bath almost as often as the shower. I love slathering on a face mask, soaking in the hot water and reading a book or magazine.

6. Life is about balance-eating healthy most of the time but splurging on Cinnamon Toast crunch when you really want it, avoiding fast food like the plague but grabbing a hot fudge sundae after a bad day. I’ve never been a regimented eater but naturally stray away from candy, soda and chips (although I am a sucker for ice cream).

7. Breakups aren’t the worst thing in the world even if they feel like they are. Take a mental health day when you need it! Growing up I was so thankful my Mom was empathetic toward my teenage heartbreak, whenever I went through a breakup (only 2-3 times) my Mom let me miss school for a day if I wanted to. Usually I attempted to distract myself with window shopping at the mall and ended up crying and eating ice cream at home but the mental health days were greatly appreciated.

8. Great boots are always worth the splurge. They will quickly pay off for themselves…or maybe I taught my Mom this, I can’t be sure (;

9. Every important relationship takes a significant amount of work whether it is with a significant other, a family member or even yourself. Investing in relationships isn’t always easy and won’t always be fun, but building strong relationships is worth the effort.

10. Always say “I love you”. Before boarding a flight, hanging up the phone, going to sleep, or hopping in the car to drive home, my Mom emphasized the importance of saying “I love you”. My Mom was always open with her affection and emotions and I believe I can attribute a large portion of my willingness to be emotionally vulnerable and to show others I care to her teachings.

 

Are you celebrating Mother’s Day with an important woman in  your life? What is the most important lesson you learned from a female role model?

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What’s your Bag of the Season?

I can never decide whether I love shoes or bags more. Truth be told, if I see one of either that I love my bank account is in serious trouble. While I truly love bags for every season, spring and summer are especially exciting because of all the playful, bright, punchy options available.

On my trip to Paris I was on the hunt for the perfect blush bucket bag. I wanted a designer I couldn’t find in the U.S. (although basically every thing can be ordered online) and I did find a bag it just wasn’t THE bag so I came home blush bagless. Handbags are still on my mind though, aren’t they always? Doing a little “if I won the lottery what would I buy” online shopping I stumbled across a handful of super cute bags for spring. I am seriously in love with all of them. As of right now I won’t be making a purchase anytime soon but that doesn’t mean I can’t live vicariously through you!

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I was window shopping in Madewell when I stumbled across this gorgeous Lafayette bucket bag. I immediately wanted to purchase it for myself but then remembered Mother’s day is coming up. My Mom has great boho inspired style and I thought this bag would be perfect for her. I’m looking forward to her opening it up this weekend. I hope she likes it!

No one can compete with Kate Spade when it comes to creating delightfully playful and whimsical pieces. I just about died when I stumbled across this wicker tea pot handbag. I have a serious obsession with tea parties and this bag is straight out of a fairytale. Spring and summer call for long weekend getaways and this weekender is in one of my all time favorite Kate Spade prints. I swear by my daisy print Vera Bradley (and the thought of giving it up almost makes me tear up) BUT this Kate Spade Kennedy Park weekender would be a fabulous replacement!

I’ver personally never owned a Rebecca Minkoff bag but I love the effortless “cool girl” vibe her pieces seem to radiate. I love this structured staple in a spring-y hue like lilac. Add the lilac Regan satchel to my bag collection ASAP.

My Sophia Webster obsession definitely started with her gorgeous butterfly heels but quickly spread to everything she creates. Sophia Webster designs for happy, fashionable girls that are seemingly in love with life. This mini Claudie is the softest shade of baby blue with the most adorable rose gold flamingos. It’s such a fun summer statement!

Tory Burch has been my favorite affordable luxury handbag designer for a few years now. I can’t browse the Tory Burch website without mentally spending a few thousand dollars on purses and shoes. This season I have fallen head over heels in love with the Thea Medium Slouchy satchel in “sweet melon”. It’s a great everyday bag as it is professional enough for the office but sweet enough for a girls’ night or brunching in your most precious sundress.

 

Are you as bag obsessed as I am? Do you have your eye on a specific bag this season?

 

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