Happy December blog friends! The first couple days of this month were a bit of a blur as I prepped for the law school admission test on the 3rd. I started prepping at the end of August and I’ve had a pretty narrow focus ever since. I’ve vascilated between feeling like I prepped and prepared well and between panicking that I should have taken a few more months to study.
The 24 hours leading up to test time were an anxious cluster. I literally fell asleep biting my nails on Friday night and woke up with a minute by minute agenda for the morning before the test. I analyzed every detail from how to wear my hair (in a ponytail and out of my face) to which underwear to wear (I don’t have a lucky pair in case you’re wondering) to how much water was ideal to drink as to avoid leaving a timed session to use the restroom. I seriously needed a xanax but managed to meditate myself into a zen like state by the time I reached the testing center.
There were students at the center who clearly hadn’t listened to podcasts on the LSAT for the past four months or reread the test center rules three times the night prior. While these students obviously exhibited traits less likely to have them admitted to an insane asylum later in life I allowed myself to feel superior for the sake of my own mental health (just for a minute okay?). I pitied them as they attempted to bring in cell phones and water bottles over the allotted ounce requirement and saw them panic as they were forced to throw their sole source of hydration away. When I was seated I was euphoric. Every piece of the day was falling into my favor. I was seated at the front of the room (no one to distract me in front of me), the desks were long and spacious and the room was quiet. I closed my eyes, took a few deep breaths and reminded myself that I was ready.
The actual results of the test are still to be determined. Looking back there are portions I felt great about and portions I felt so-so about. I’ve never been great at predicting my test scores so I’m desperately trying not to over analyze (failing but trying). If I hit my goal I can pack up my LSAT books forever, if I fell short I’ll be retaking the test and living through the anxiety one more time. Hopefully the holidays will provide a big distraction for me while I wait for the scores to be released.
After the test Jordan and I met up with my mom and step dad to watch the Nutcracker and head to a celebratory dinner a time The Melting Pot. My Mom was super sweet and surprised me with flowers, chocolate covered strawberries and champagne. I felt like one lucky girl! I’m not usually one to rave about service but the staff at The Melting Pot at evening were among the kindest strangers I’ve ever encountered. After hearing I took the LSAT that day the host sent up champagne for our whole table. Half way through the meal, not to have her table be treated by someone else, our waitress sent us each a second celebratory glass on the house. In addition to the free drinks the staff were overly congratulatory and warm. The evening was so jovial I felt myself really letting the holiday spirit overtake me.
With the LSAT behind me I can finally focus on all things festive and wintery. I’m day dreaming of ice skating, soft pink mittens and thick, creamy hot chocolate to warm me up in this frigid weather. I’ve already begged my best friend to go ice skating with me and my boyfriend to take a day trip to the mountains to visit a Bavarian themed Christmas town. I’m not sure I’ll hit every item on my Christmas to-do list but I’m guaranteed to have a great time trying.
Now that I won’t be dedicating such a large proportion of my time to studying I hope to get back on my regular blog schedule. I’ve really missed writing daily in this space. Happy December!